Kelly is recovering from the surgery quite nicely, and is able to do more each day. It appears, thankfully, that she is on her way to a smooth recover from the c-section. The emotional part is obviously more complicated, but I will try to capture some of it here...
Before Jonah was born, Kelly and I experienced a lot of anxiety so long stretches of sleep were hard to come by. Now, getting through each day feels like we’ve run the mental equivalent of a marathon. The only benefit of this is that we are now sleeping better at night, which always helps, and we take naps whenever the need arises. Evan has actually been sleeping a little better than normal and not waking up too often to got to the bathroom. He does bring up "baby Jonah" often and when he does, we take some time to talk to him about Jonah and show him pictures. I am a little surprised that he has retained this for as long as he has, but I am also hopeful that he can retain some memories of his little brother. Evan is a sweet kid with a big heart, and whenever we are sad, he gives us a big hug so that we will feel better. I am immensely grateful to have him around to distract and entertain us.
Also, I went back to work this week, going back half-time this week and then back full-time next week. The transition is a little strange, but I guess this is what one of the counselors meant when she said that we are now getting used to the "new normal," which is what our life is now without Jonah. Maybe we need to meet that yo-yo halfway in order to finally catch it.
Anyway, the blog still lives and we will continue to post when the mood strikes. Evan will surely be more prominent especially as he has become quite the little "Energizer Bunny" lately. It looks like spring is finally here in Wisconsin. Hopefully it will be a good one with lots of time outside.
-John and Kelly